It's the weekends, yet again. This week has been good. 'cept for the fact that CA is just next week, and I've yet to start doing those revision papers and studying. Urghs. The children event held yesterday was awesome. I got a dinosaur drew on my hand. Qin had one too, except hers was pink, and mine was green. Lunch-ed before heading for Northpoint for the interview. And it scared the crap out of me when I was posted some questions. Am having mixed feelings if I still wanna go ahead with the IA or not, sighs! We'd all be assigned to different outlets for the 2.5 weeks? Oh man, that's the thing I dread most. Yucks.

And cause of the IA, I think meetup with Lynn, Kely & Teacher has to be postponed. Siao liao lor. Super sianxzs ):

Very listless these few days, although I tried as I might, but still succumbed to whatever that matter is. Had a difficult time getting to sleep, and concentrating on stuffs. Quite affected by it, by what am I to do? When I get that opportunity to ask, I would. But, that chance has not yet presented itself. So, in the meantime. I guess I'll have to continue putting up with the situation that I'm in for a few more days or maybe even weeks. Tmd. Cause of it, I slept 16 hours since last evening til today, waking up more than 5 times. Reason why? I don't wanna think about the matter throughout the whole night that I'm sober.

I have a list of things to get. & to top it up on the list, is my outfit for next friday's dinner. It's so rushing. Don't know what to get, when to get, where to get. All I wanna do for this weekend, is to stay home and complete the revision papers. So probably will get it by next week, cross my fingers for that.

Gone were the days of nonsense and staying up late. & I dislike it, to the maximum.

On a brighter note.. Can't wait to see Grandma next week, alongside with all the other relatives. (Y)

I'm still feeling like that. Even after having a good talk and clear-up with the girls (minus Naz). Felt much better after pouring out stuffs. Had a good time with Aunties & cousin over at their place just now. Been so long since I last felt that close to them. Being able to joke around and etc.
&time flies, very fast. In a blink of an eye, we've all grown up. Unbelievable.

School's out tomorrow, and I'm gonna stay home and try to revise and do the housework. Cross fingers that I won't turn lazy. & I kinda miss younger brother. Hooha ):

And you, yes you. You made me felt worse than before with all that you said. Ultra disheartened, I wanted to cry. Like I was threw from the sky and free falling at bullet-speed. Sucks to be me, sometimes.

Life's like a layout of dominos. It takes a whole lot of effort to build, re-build and start all over again with all the little disturbances to it.
& I figure, I should really stop bothering.




Nearly a week since I last blogged. Not that I'm getting lazy to blog, guess I just don't feel like blogging?


Monday: Went to NLB for another exhibition where we got chased out by the library officer for creating too much din. We just got excited taking photos, what can I say? The girls got me accessories for my birthday and a lovely card. They sang the birthday song in the library itself, like hahaha. Home-sweet-home after that, and I think I got a lil drenched on the way back. Dinner at Mushroom Pot with D was awesome. :) I enjoyed my special day to the max. And thankyou to all those that wished me and even went to the extend to get me gifts, really really appreciate it. Esp that Momo, mass spammed me with 18 texts at one go. Heh. & to all those that thought I would have went clubbing or something, I certainly did not. I slept pretty early though! Heh!



Tuesday: Went to Science Centre for the Body Worlds exhibition. And well.. What can I say? The exhibits took my breath away, literally. It was seriously fabulous to the max. Did got a lil' shock seeing all those preserved bodies with the muscles and etc. But got used to it after a while. From an embryo all the way to a giraffe, wow. You all should seriously go for the exhibition. It don't come quite cheap though! But our expenses were covered by school, so cheers for that. (Y) Went to far east after the fieldtrip to look at some dresses before heading home.

Wednesday: Nothing much I guess? OH, younger brother went back to malaysia that night, alone. Yeah, super independent. I know. Ha. Somehow, the house seems different without his presence. Sigh. No one to follow me to supermarket and etc.


Thursday: Career fair at Simei. So didn't go to school again. Had lunch at Carls Junior before heading to the campus where the girls had a mini celebration for all the november babies. Atikah, Hilya, Shuna & me. I got smeared on the face by cream. And I think I'm the luckiest? Cause I only got it on my face, instead of my hair or my shirt or my hands. Haha. Enjoyed it and Naz drew a lovely Snoopy picture for me! Awww, super loveddddd.
Signed up for a few companies at the fair, and took plenty of pictures with Qin's camera. Qin & Shuna were the models for the day. Rushed down to boarding house after that to put up the photos before going back home with dinner.

Friday: Dental in the morning and I didn't get reprimanded again like previously. Whoo. I got praised instead please, for the tremendous improvements in my mouth. (Y) Hopefully I can take them out soon. Rushed to school after that to meet the 30 minutes allowance so as to not get marked as absent. Ms.N gave us the list of courses that we are eligible to apply for after graduation. Shall open the file soon and browse through it. Oh. Something very "memorable" happened while I was having lunch. Details shall not be divulged. My craving for bubble tea was further dragged for another day since tuesday. ): Went to supermarket last night, alone. And came home with three big bags of stuffs. I think the bags were too heavy, and I stretched my muscle on my left arm. Like pain to the max. But it's fine now.
Got a little nutty last night, I don't know why too. Moodswing-ed I guess? And yeah. I got crazy and super nonsense. Whoever that were texting my should know, eh. Slept late cause I was up texting all night.

And today! I woke up with a tummyache. Must be me eating too much last night. Noodles, snacks, yoghurt, milk and etc. Ha. Aunty came over in the morning just now too and stayed for awhile before going back. And like usual, she kidnapped another bag of mine with plenty of other freebies that I gave. Haha. Gonna take my sling bag back from her, later.
It's gonna start pouring again. And I've to remember to take the pills staring in front of me. Speedstacks is on for tomorrow morning. I don't know if I should go down or not. Or perhaps, I shall just go, and stay a little while before I leave? Sigh, this is such a headache. ): I've yet to ask Teacher for permission even. ): Cross my fingers, blah.

Something's been bothering me for quite awhile. & I'm gonna blame it on my sensitivity. Like, forever my sensitivity. Fuck.

And my reflection&wishes/aims upon turning 18?
1) I wanna graduate with a big bang.
2) I wanna get admitted to a course I want.
3) I wanna manage my time better since this semester is a killer and I've other commitments as well.
4) I wanna lower down my level of sensitivity.
5) I wanna be more contented and happy with all that I got, I have and I'm gonna have.
6) I wanna embrace all things that is gonna happen to me with a hug, be it good or bad.
7) I wanna give due credits and appreciation to all those who have been there for me through the ups&downs, be it physically or mentally.
8) I wanna cut down on all my negatives and add on my positives.
9) Lastly. I wanna give myself a good headstart into my 18th year of life. (a good beginning is half a battle won, isn't it?)

p/s: people change. changes occur. & it repeats itself like a life cycle. only difference? different people gets affected with every new turn of the circle. solution? (i) ignore and continue as per normal. (ii) acknowledge, accept & embrace the change. (iii) refuse to believe such a change has happened, and remain stuck in that whirlpool of emotions.
what will you choose? & will you really be able to do what you've chose? we human are such complex mammals..


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you ain't my runner up,
you're always my #1.
my prized possession,
my one & only.

Justin Bieber - Favourite Girl

Counting down to tomorrow, with all the uneasy feeling bothering me physically. The flatuating of temperatures & queasiness in my tummy, I so detest this feeling ):

Met kely&co this afternoon and had my advanced celebrations with them @ minds cafe for approx. 4 hours? &let's leave the frustrating part out. I enjoyed, & pictures would be up.

&yes, I cut my hair. To shoulder length. Don't ask why I cut, I won't entertain. Cause what's done have been done. A new look, for a new chapter in life, why not? (:

School's been okay? Had lunch yesterday with SBSC excos and went out after that. &home-ed with fever. How cool. Hurrs.

And, I'm pretty much hating panadols now. Yucks.

Goodnight, (:

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And if you need a reason why

It's in the way that you move me
And the way that you tease me
The way that I want you tonight
It's in the way that you hold me
And the way that you know me
When I can't find the right words to say
You feel it in the way